Selasa, 09 April 2019

My 100 Reasons to Stay Alive

(Updated November 23rd 2022)

1.        Work with a good salary. (belum)
2.        Getting paid from my dream job, at least one of them: dubber, rapper (belum)
3.        I have to keep my health. The only reason to live my life is, I have to stay healthy, and I’m doing this now.
4.        Travel around the world. Or at least three of them: Mecca, Greece, Los Angeles, Maldives, Seoul, Seattle. (belum)
5.        Marry someone I love so much, and he loves me so much. 
6.        If I’m getting married, I would like to own a house with my husband.
7.        Getting married, first and last. The one and only husband. I try my best to avoid divorce since I have a phobia with divorcement. (Nggak tau)
8.        Have a beautiful wedding with white-long wedding dress.
9.        Honeymoon to Greece. Greece is always a good idea for honeymoon and making love. (Belum)
10.     Having children. If a boy, named Percy. If a girl, I still have no idea with the name. But ofcourse with D initial. (BATAL)
11.     Having children with 5 words-name. Because it’s rare. And I want them to remember how beautiful their long names even if it’s difficult for them to remember. (BATAL)
12.     Give my strength, my love, my heart, my mind, my body, my soul AND MY BEST to my child(ren). (belum)
13.     Educate my child(ren) such as: yelling, advising, hugging, teaching, etc. (belum)
14.     Quality time with my little family is always happy. (belum)
15.     Less fighting, more loving. That’s family. 
16.     Understanding my child(ren) with all I have. (belum)
17.     I want to be known as an understanding mom, beautiful mom, amazing mom, careful mom, happy mom, smart mom, and sexy mom from my child(ren). (belum)
18.     Go to trip, holiday, vacation with my the one and only love husband and my child(ren). (belum)
19.     Dressing my family like Greek gods and goddesses. (BATAL)
20.     Dressing my child(ren) like panda, bear, elephant, and dino. Or panda. Just panda. (belum)
21.     Having beautiful, handsome, kind, honest, humble son-in-law/daughter-in-law. (belum)
22.     Having grandchildrens with happy faces running on the backyard. (belum)
23.     If I’m not getting married, I would buy myself a house and live alone happily until I die. (BATAL)
24.     Buy myself a car.
25.     Live alone in the apartment or a house. (BATAL)
26.     To take a master degree of English Literature again. I don’t know why but I like my major so much. (belum)
27.     Maybe I ever think about, live in South Korea or America. Because I like their cultures. So different from here. (BATAL)
28.     Try my career at YouTube or Instagram or Twitter.(belum)
29.     Meet my idol. At least all of them. Yes. At least all of them: #1 Tom Hiddleston, #2Huang Zi Tao, #3 Park Seung Jun/KNK, #4 Andrea Dovizioso (belum)
30.     Dress like a Greek’s goddesses.
31.     Do something beautiful for my 26th birthday (at April 26th) because I like 26 so much. (BATAL. My 26th birthday was not that beautiful)
32.     Have the ability just like superheroes. It’s impossible, but, in the future, nothing is impossible, right? (Me: Ability like The Flash. Maybe because I have ever dreamt about being fast like the Flash—that was a weird dream, tho) (belum)
33.     Watch MotoGP in Mandalika, Lombok, 2021. (BATAL: because of pregnant)
34.     Having sex.
35.     Meet Mr. Joko Widodo. (belum)
36.     Become famous. I don’t know how but I think I can do that even it is hard. (belum)
37.     Slim. I want slim. Because I’m fat. (belum)
38.     Rich. I need to be rich. I hope it is at 26. Because I wrote this at March 26th and this number is 26. 26 is always be my lucky number and it should be. Aamiin! I plan, Allah decide. I plan, Allah decide. (nggak kaya di umur 26)
39.     Die old. Die in peace. (belum)
40.     Watch South Korean idol’s concert(s). At least once in my life. (belum)
41.     Wear a miniskirt for hangout. (belum)
42.     Go to the beach, because I haven’t see the ocean yet in my entire life goddamnit bro. (BALI 2021)
43.     Have my own song. Maybe rap song. Made by myself, about myself. (belum)
44.     Become a superhero at least for one person. (belum)
45.     Try any haircuts with any color if I had a chance—if my hair’s strong enough to do that. (belum)
46.     Listening and jamming my favorite song in my own car and enjoy the traffic when going to work.
47.     Maybe sometimes, I always think I want to be a president or at least mayor. (nggak mau, males)
48.     Buy everything I want with no hesitate. (masih belum)
49.     Involved in a movie. I’m not bad at acting. Instead, I’m quite good. (belum)
50.     Create and launch my own novel. (belum)
51.     To be known by people. Because I don’t wanna fame that bad, I like what I do, I do what I like. (belum)
52.     Buy my family what they want with my own money.
53.     Make my family happy even without money. Someone said, “Stop making other people happy.” That’s definitely wrong because no one would never do that to their family.
54.     I don’t stay alive to make my exes jealous. I like being me.
55.     I don’t care what haters gonna talk everything behind me, I like being me. (I do still care)
56.     I want to speak in Korean and Thai fluently. (belum)
57.     Being interviewed on media. (belum)
58.     Have at least one achievement to make Indonesia proud of/caused by me. (belum)
59.     Have a long hair reach to the knee. (belum)
60.     Getting a photoshoot.
61.     People know me as a cheerful and happy Diva.
62.     To help people with a lack of job, money, sad, mourned, wounded, troubled, and difficulty. (belum)
63.     Rich. (belum)
64.     Get drunk. (belum)
65.     Have at least one eternity bestfriend.
66.     I want to dance in at least one song (full from the beginning to end) because I would never done that. Dance is so hard for me. (belum)
67.     Back to 50kg. (belum)
68.     To make my parents, family, friends proud of me. (nggak tau)
69.     Because I don’t want to die soon.
70.     To live in the right path, and to break the rules.
71.     Cosplay to Batman, Superman, Wonder Woman, Shazam I don’t care I just want to. (belum)
72.     Have a house outside Bandung. (belum)
73.     Meet Panda. Omg. The one and only animal that I like. (belum)
74.     Up to 180cm even I can’t afford that, I just want to write it down here. (BATAL)
75.     Wear a dental braces maybe? (belum)
76.     Harry Potter theme park should be on my first trip list if I’m going to rich. (belum)
77.     Change my hair color to blonde or gray. Full. Yes, full. (belum)
78.     Be a boss even/at least for one person. Maybe for my child(ren) XD. (belum)
79.     Burj Khalifa, please! OMG. (belum)
80.     Because I want to see snow. Touch them, sleep on them, eat them, having fun with them. (belum)
81.     Dancing in the rain. (belum)
82.     Wearing contact-lense. Or not maybe. I’m just too scared. (WEDDING MARCH 2022)
83.     Swimming like a mermaid. I’m so fucking bad at swim. Literally. I got worst grade at swim when I was in high school. That’s embarrassing.
84.     Read someone’s mind. (belum)
85.     Teleportation. The only super power that I wish to have. (belum)
86.     Fly. It’s not a super power. Going on a plane is a fly. So yeah. I want to fly sometimes. I want to feel it. (belum)
87.     Meet my another six twins in the world. (belum)
88.     Meet my me when I was baby. That’s crazy yes I know. Or gross at a same time. (belum)
89.     I want to have a Bugatti Veyron :) Oh, Allah… I want to buy one. (belum)
90.     I like earrings. I want to collect all of them. I want to be an earrings collector.
91.     I wish superheroes was real. I wish there is someone like a superhero and have a super power. I want that to be me. (belum)
92.     I want something kinda fantasy, to be real in our life.
93.     Go to someone’s party and go home so late.(belum)
94.     I want to vacuum my house to the details like crazy.(belum)
95.     I want peace everywhere.(belum)
96.     Getting my nails polished. Hahaha.(belum)
97.     I want to be old. With a gray hair, wrinkled face. I want to experience that.(belum)
98.     I still have a lot of sins, I need to stay alive to be a better person in the future.
99.     I have to thank to Allah everyday, so I have to stay alive, right?
100.  I don’t stay alive just to make my enemies happy. I live my life happily with my own way.